*Colloquial Written English Glossary:
- Lyk: Like
- Ur: Your
- U: You
- @: At
- &: And
- r: Are
- w: with
- tryna: trying to
- nu: new
It had been a long time since I felt lyk this. In fact, maybe, I've never felt lyk this? I don't know. Suddenly, the outside judgements r so good (as always) but now I DO see them.
Individuals want to create a union w me. It's not that they didn't do it in the past, but now the desire of some of them shines above the skies & moon.
Need to follow my Persona, my thoughts, my ideas, suck from them, like a baby from his mother when he's still blooming. Some do it from the shadows, (indirectly), some come and ask for advice, help or just conversation. Recommendations...
And now, they make me want to go on & not stay in nothing (main difference-).
Now, my feelings are so strange/good/strange. Maybe not strange but... not common. In me. I just -finally- FEEL GOOD.
I KNOW what I want.
What I deserve & need.
I know who I am & who I want to be.
I even know who I would spend my time with, & why it is Worth to do it. (Suddenly my time seems to have value, not to others... but to Me!)
Isn't all of this surprising? : -Clear ideas, few worries-.
"Almost complete" Self-Consciousness.
But never stopping wanting to know more & sink into the pits of new
You & U W Me (1st)
My God, I luv your face as it shines when I look @ u, blessed w the sparkle of a child.
I love the moment when suddenly all ur attention is poured into me as I talk, in fact, it is SO strong that my thoughts collapse, because I've already finished my story... & your eyes continue stabbing me, with a thought about something I said sailing in ur mind, or maybe just feeding ur eyes w the sight of my face. Whatever it is; it is astonishing.
You say you want to create a hollow in my lips just with kisses. With YOUR kisses...: I'd sink into them, & into Ur mouth, & into Ur eyes & Ur mind & Ur sex a thousand times in loop.
It -this- is strange because everything u do is kind of a surprise, kisses included. My Lord...
You & U W Me (2nd)
I'm tryna learn every inch of ur body, of ur Beautiful Body: ur soft skin, ur body's freckles -moles-, every corner where I can hide when the outside world is tough & grief comes after me.
I love all of ur features (You asked me; "what do u like about me? here u are, -a part of all I love-): (on repeat):
(I call you:) "a speck of dust I've been carrying some time in my right eye. It is annoying, uncomfortable, irritating, inconvenient, inquisitive, beautiful, interesting, curious, wide, large, intelligent, ambivalent, unique" ( http://www.crashingshiver.blogspot.com.es/2016/01/f.html ) ; and now not on repeat:
Cultivated, handsome, imaginative, kind, attractive, attentive, courteous, listener, talker, teller, teacher, master, sexy, curious -AGAIN-, creative, understanding, starver for knowledge & experience, responsible -reliable-, adventurous, interesting -again, in a mysterious way sometimes-, with a stunning Aura, affectionate, caring, maddening!, funny, witty...
And I love the way u appreciate the Whole me: not just an opinion, a though I have on something, or a singer or an artist I luv, but the whole thing: all the contradictions: "Do I contradict myself? Very well, then, I contradict myself; I am large - I contain multitudes." (Ldr) - (another coincidence of those of which we have so many).
Above all, the fact that U really have an interest 4 what I have to say & my hunger to know, & your own hunger too, & our urge to get to know All we can know, & discuss it, & think, & reflect on life & its loops and intrinsic mysteries
... and the HOWs & WHYs
Oh, I almost forgot how I luv ur Rebellious Soul & the yen u have to wake all the minds around you up, to see, to Open their eyes & minds & see the real world &... CHANGE it.
And last, but not least, I love the way u Touch me, the way We switch from tenderness to the most perverse fantasy our minds could create. How I scream in the inside because of ur tongue, or ur mouth: how u push me to also do it on the outside...
Thank U for the beautiful garden we're growing, & the nu house in the gap between my collarbones and my neck, & the one u allowed me to build in ur gap, wooden log by wooden log.
Let's end with a beautiful quote... "We r Ugly, But We Have the Music" (L. Cohen)